人日

昨天和杰律去Manly骑脚车, 才发现自己体力真的很差.

对了,好久没更新,我都不知道该说些什么了.
反正,我还是活得不错.

今年也23岁了.
想当年的18岁
想当年的20岁
都已经一去不返了.

时间正在很努力得一点一点消逝,我却没有发现.
好吧, 今年定下目标, 一定要毕业, 然后迈向朝九晚五的人生.

反正人生就是那么反复无常, 我就任性一下,做我喜欢的东西就好了.

23岁的我,今年请多指教!

拜托你了! 帅哥! 哈哈!

白天不懂夜的黑，你卻懂得我的美 

最近在考虑要不要搬家到wordpress, 因为wordpress有支持iphone和ipad的官方软件. (有没有搞错iphone都那么红了,blogger怎么不做一个软件呢? 难道就觉得每个人都在手机twitter,微博吗?支持一下会死噢?) 


怎么说呢, 最近不是很忙,只不过有四份报告要交而已. 我都还没开始复习呢. 


昨天和朋友去吃饭,感觉上大家都在各忙各,虽然很久没聚在一起,可是一聚在一起好像又有聊不完的话题. 
可能友情就是那么不在乎吧. 


活到这个岁数都已经对友情没什么执着了, 反正什么都听过,看过,经历过. 
就用不在乎的态度来面对好了.


只不过看到黑人的哥儿们那么多的时候,有点令我担忧. 人生本来就没什么好怕的. 但是人往往就是有点面子. 
其实我的担忧就是将来我结婚, 到底伴郎会是谁啊? 


说实在我没有一个可以非常要好分喜忧的男生朋友. 一直都是. 而且我也没有弟弟,哥哥之类的. 难道要交亲戚那么丢脸?
人家黑人叫到就3个啊! 3个!!! 


而我虽然打开电话簿90%都是男生,可是却只有被我翻阅过的份. 所以这个是我近期在反省的一个社交问题. 


而且我觉得,就算以后我结婚,被我邀请的朋友可能也只围满一桌而已啊. 


我处理友情是非常特殊的. 就小学之后就没有和小学同学来往, 中学之后就中学, 大学就大学, 学记就学记, 之后就不来往了. 
反正没有共同的话题, 哈拉哈拉也不是我的强项. 所以人气就不是那么高. 


虽然偶尔可以嘴炮一下,可是就很表面. 


我完了. 


"曾經有人這樣唱過白天他不懂夜的黑，你卻懂得我的美 "


祝福范范和黑人永远幸福,快乐. 他们一定会的. 

收藏的价值

早在我还没看漫画的时代, 我记忆里总是随着父母去"租带". 里面都是一本本的文件夹,里面分门别类.不过当时租的很多都是港剧. 我还记得,那是还没有ASTRO的时代.

每次我都会翻着一些卡通/动画,叫父母租给我看. 记忆中有<蜜蜂寻亲记>,<小泰山>, <蒙面超人>, < Ultraman> 等等 (也不知道名字对不对).  (我超有童年)

这些动画多数都是经过翻译, 都是说广东话的. (所以我广东话特流利,标准,好!)

印象深刻的, 都是蒙面超人和Ultraman系列(整个家族几十个超人,不深刻才怪)

当中最喜欢蒙面超人RX, 和Black

附图:

变身动画(超帅,学了很久)


总之到今天为之他们还是我心目中最帅的超级英雄.
(现在的小孩只会叫IRONMAN, TRANSFORMER, 真糟糕)

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有点离题, OK, 就是呢,几年前我经过一家卖影片的店, 看到RX系列. 之后妹妹买给我做生日礼物, 可惜是日文版,而且动画有点残旧, 所以看了两集就没看了. (主要原因还是日文版)

所以有人可以找回广东版的吗?

我一定会抽时间再看完的!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

我想要收藏的漫画/动画

没什么, 抒发一下, 顺便找知音. 以下都是我想要收藏的动漫画全集

名侦探柯南
海贼王
火影忍者
BLEACH
死亡笔记
游戏王
小叮当
BAKUMAN
火凤燎原
Gundam Seed + Destiny
虫师[已经完整收藏]
驱魔师D.Gray-man
结界师
银魂
20+21世纪少年
数码暴龙
Pokemon
魔法学园MX0
Eyeshield 21
钢之炼金术师
灌篮高手
调酒师-Bartender
PSYREN
欺诈游戏
日式面包王
通灵王
新世纪福音战士
诈欺猎人
植木的法则
蒙面超人SPIRITS

以上.

以前都是买散册,和同学交换看(比如我买1, 你买2,他买3)
然后到中学就开始买<漫画周刊>, 认识了很多不错的作品,只可惜被拿去环保了,而且收藏的确不方便.

如果对漫画有留意,这些都是在我们年代的作品. 其实我一直都有留意动漫届的动向, 只不过对新的漫画总是提不起劲,所以结论大概就是时代变迁了吧,(要不然就是作品水准下降, 好像长辈们常说的一代不如一代啊), 总之收完这些漫画后,可能以后也不再看了(这是不可能的,我是宅男王!).

其实看回上去,真得很多一下,没关系, 慢慢来,反正还有很多还在连载.

真希望以后可以建一个漫画图书馆.  (以上是一位朋友放在FB炫耀的)

Little Updates

Been going gym for 2 days, its kinda worth it for a place that you can spend your time on. And of course, Im comparing with a boring outing wit my friend.

We went to 3 places by train, not to mention the time we wasted, end up doing nothing, only "lepak". With  Ringgit = AUD hits 3.2, i could afford to spend anymore money spending on unnecessary things.

Well, thats all i guess.

Are you Confident enough?

I will ask myself this question every night when i'm on bed.

Am I ready?

Hell no.

Looking on the bright side, it's just 12 days more.

Looking on the dark side, it's also just 12 days more. or less.

I'm really feeling like a college dropout already.

Not giving up yet, but can't fight through it either.

Encouragement, Motivation is all meaningless as it gets closer.

If I couldn't make the right choice, let others do it for me.

I believe I can fly. Why do you care what other people think? I like this. But i do care what other people feel me as a failure. We don't live in an island alone, right?

Let's do it. At least pass all 3/ the best is still 4.

放胆一击

最近起得早,可是睡不好. 考试要到了. 我还在怀疑自己. 每次躺在床上,就会想到如果考不好,肯定就是回去了. 想到面对的压力,就自然睡不好了.

之前有和Saibeng聊过. 我们中四,五的时候,都是属于"放牛班", 根本没有人管,虽然我课外活动很活跃,可是成绩不怎么样. 他们现在都在Taylors念书, 连之前在HELP念心理学的siewtheeng都转去念了.

我一直想, 我会是不同的吗? 我很在意排名? 不知道了... 目前知道的是如果回去就是很大的困扰.

亲戚

父母的"社会朋友"

朋友

情人

这次真得是最后机会了.

心里虽然充满疑惑,可是至少要表现爽朗,坚强. 每次考试我都会听这首歌, 分享一下

罗志祥的必杀技. 他也是从人生低潮走过来的.而且这受歌的歌词根本就是战斗曲,热血沸腾!

眼睛秀出你的神经 
心跳冲击 压破所有生命  
这一秒更多难题还在磨练  
一瞬间你已经无法逃避  
Did You Ever  重找失去的新音律  
Did You Ever  眼前的风景充满危机 
Did You Ever  就天天不嬴 只是剩下自己  
是否避到绝境 是否使出全力   
你摇摆舞竞技 放胆一击  努力睁开眼睛 冲刺到底 
 暗藏的必杀技 会在手心  Bet On It Bet On It  Bet On It 拼到底  
 你要相信自己 没有奇迹  就会一鼓作气 绝不放弃  
暗藏的必杀技 会在手心  Bet On It Bet On It  Bet On It 拼到底  
 我不会怪你 偷偷举过白旗  伪装着再壮也没有出息  
别忘天生我材必有潜力  我才练出现在的必杀技  
Did You Ever  回头不住落跑的路  
Did You Ever  每个人都说千万别输  
Did You Ever  从挫败自由智与侏  是否赶上绝路 你是否全力以赴
你摇摆舞竞技 放胆一击  努力睁开眼睛 冲刺到底 
 暗藏的必杀技 会在手心  Bet On It Bet On It  Bet On It 拼到底   
你要相信自己 没有奇迹  就会一鼓作气 绝不放弃  
暗藏的必杀技 会在手心  Bet On It Bet On It  Bet On It 拼到底  
 你要相信自己 没有奇迹  就会一鼓作气 绝不放弃  
暗藏的必杀技 会在手心  Bet On It Bet On It  

Bet On It 拼到底 

目光如豆

以前真得很嚣张, 结果选择自己不喜欢做的东西, 完全没有热诚.

很多长辈说, Marketing不用学, 出来就会.

我在外面打过半年工, 不是Office工,而是在商场做前线,

现在读到marketing, 觉得和以前学到的东西真得很相似.

我觉得东西有两面, 如果你是想学习新知识, 可能选修一些比较技术性的东西, 例如电脑工程, 医科,经济学之类的, 如果比较实际的大概就是工商管理,会计之类吧.

marketing虽然被说成没用,可是我还是乐在其中,尤其是这个学期修的consumer behaviour 让我大开眼界. 很多东西我们都知道, 而且都很像废话, 可是当他们拼在一起的时候可以产生排山倒海的旋风, 好像苹果ipod只不过操纵客人的虚荣感和强调他的科技, 可是根本没有人会考虑比他好很多的sony mp3. 所以说, 理智是可以被摆动和影响的. 这个也是salesman站在外面的道理一样.

如果没有fail econ,下个学期想读marketing research, 是marketing学生的必修课, 可是我对presentation和marketing都有信心和兴趣, 特别是学生都很活跃参与讨论, 很有大学交流的feel.

经济真得很难, 不过要尽力, 要和昨天的自己比较, 比昨天进步就好了.

因为喜欢marketing而被说没用,目光如豆的白豆腐 上.

Meatholgy

Yesterday, I was invited by a friend to BBQ. So it was just me, him and his gf. On the way there, I keep asking him, am I too bright for you guys? Honestly I really never been to a 3 ppl only BBQ. And it was random.

So they prepared this mongolian lamb spit (烤羊肉串) which they told me they've prepared it for a night. Actually lamb is never my culture and i refer it as a n exotic food, which i will put it on the last 100 food i will consume if I'm lost in an island with no other food and I'm waiting for rescue team. Sometimes it's just hard to be yourself. When those people with positive images ask you to be yourself, how are they suppose to understand this when they are not doing it?

I'm facing this dilemma of telling him that i don't eat lamb, but sometimes it's hard because you have a lame reason. Doesn't taste good? Don't like 羊臊味? Unlike beef because it's against my religion and I can backed it up with strong reasons. So i just keep it down.

Well, there are no other alternative except fresh oysters, which even out of the last 100 food list cos first i'm allergic to seafood, second i will never eat raw food. So i helped to put the things together and start BBQ. Turnout the lamb is acceptable, not too bad and we had a great day.

I learnt alot based on past experience dealing with people. I remembered my first meal in Sydney which prepared by my friend was lamb sausage and rice. I still remember how i showed my disgust against it. And they never prepare any lamb, beef or seafood dishes with me again. I'm very lucky because they change their diet because of my arrogant (couldn't find a better word, which later on referred as childish) behaviour.

We have our own culture, so do other people.

Learning all these is far more valuable than what i'm learnt in universities.

Thus, I beg for forgiveness.

In this global world, multiracial country, we have change our behaviour to be ourselves. (What a way to end the blog.)

没有阳光的日子

最近的每一天,醒来的时候总会觉得很冷. 我讨厌冬天. 把一切生机带走的冬天. 可能因为有了冬天, 才看得出温暖的珍贵, 也可能有了冬天,人们才会珍惜现在说拥有的. 不像一些在浪费资源的热带国家.

这几天的寒夜,令我觉得彻夜难眠. 每次躺在床上,闭上眼,却睡不着. 这时候我都会唱歌,唱一些我熟悉的歌. 然后慢慢回想以前的生活.

最近常唱的是Jolin的说爱你.那首令她走红的歌曲,当时经常在中二的课室响起. 其实中二算是我人生中的小转折,让我认识到一些好友.

其实一路走来,我都没有什么遗憾,唯一遗憾大概就是为什么以前不要拿Add-maths之类的社会遗憾,因为我相当清楚我以后的路,add-math对我是没什么帮助的.

唱一些励志的歌,想一下未来. 短暂的未来. 六月回家,七月去新加坡,八月又回来了. 经过上次假期的旅行与见识, 我不能说我讨厌澳洲了, 因为旅行真得还不错,而且很自在. 可是我很讨厌经济, 真得没有脑去选修经济.

我一直有收看NTV7的<非谈不可>>, 记得某一集他们在谈新经济政策,请了三个专家, 我一直想,难道我要变成这种人? 这种沉闷的人? 屁,才不要.

我喜欢吸收资讯,看看新世界, 总括-- 什么都要做,可是什么都做不好的废柴.

接下来要考试了, 如果有感而发我还会再写的, 最近和jieli聊很多, 他就是以前的我,可是他比我厉害很多倍,哈哈.

还有,母亲节快乐, 妈妈我爱你!

blog比作文好,是我可以离题! 怎样?

会心一谈

今天午餐和jieli聊了很多不同的观点. 他是一个会在社会上滚得很好的齿轮. 他清楚自己将来的失业,未来.

可是有些时候我觉得他很紧绷. 好像他和我抱怨说,来澳洲最遗憾是没有认识到"鬼佬".

我认为他和我很像,都是宅男,而且宅男很难认识"鬼佬", 所以我建议他去学Marketing等有群体交流的科目,比较容易认识到外国人. 屈指一算, 我也认识了不少外国人, 当然熟不熟就另外一回事啦....

他否决了我的建议, 它说这个没有帮助到他以后的事业.

命运这种东西真得很可爱, 因为你往往不知道下一页是什么.

如果可以的话,我很想当一个"观察者"(Observer)

一直以来,我一直都想和这种人抗衡. 可能我也是这一类人, 可是我一直都在所谓的"差班",接触的人也是江湖人. 一直以来我都会和所谓的"精英班"比较, 成绩我不用玩,可是我很积极参与活动,一直磨练自己的精神,课外知识.

可是到头来, 这些活动只是为了培养我们,让我们面对考试. 再积极,也是没用.毕竟现实中的"精英"与"笨蛋"是用数字衡量的.

爱因斯坦小时候被人说学习障碍, 不知道21岁的时候他在做什么呢?

没有人能够做到为自己而活.

命运在左手,机会在右手, 努力在双手.

Left and Right, Front and Back

Joe's(My friend/housemate) room has 2 tables sticking together, left and right. For the left side, he put his computer and gaming stuff, and on the right side he put his loads of papers and lecture notes.

My room has 2 tables, front and back. In front of me is a laptop, and gaming stuff that keeps me alive and behind me is all my textbooks and notes.

That's sounds very unfair why laptop must be front side and books must be behind? Because i spend most of my time at the entertainment side!

But from now on, this is my Behind table.

Exam in one month. Haiz. Not even close to saying "I'm not ready."

Sympathy and Charity

Recently these things always happen.

Case 1

One fine day, when you walking in the mall, some random girl just come out and says she's lost and it is the first time she came here, and she need to know where is the train station. So, i purposely bring her to the train station which i told her, "Don't worry, i just live across the station, which I'm not."

Case 2

Next thing is a lady told me she usually walks back home, but today her leg seems too hurt for her to walk, so she have to take a bus, and she's asking me for small change, $2.5. I look around, and i turn her down.

Case 3

A long lost friend of mine just randomly pop-up a message in Facebook saying, "Hiya, it's been a long time, are you studying in Australia?, Do you access to library database, cos i need to look for a book and wish u can help me out." Well, I said ok, then i start searching, but in the end i can't get what he wants. Well, at least i tried.

Case 4

A long lost xueji of mine just randomly pop-up a message in Facebook saying, "Hi, please vote for me I'm in a competition! " To be honest with you guys, I'm don't even know her. We get together because of xueji but I have no idea how many words i speak to her. At the end i voted.

Conclusion

All these things happen in real life. I just kinda put them together and try to get a linear or some positive relationship. And the conclusion is, I'm a Cheap Bastard. I helped people when they need a hand, but not the money. Meh, If i got a car, i would offer the poor lady to send her home but sometimes sympathy does not equals to charity.

Recently Macquarie Chinese People Society is raising fund for Yushu Earthquake victims and they set up a booth. When i walked passed and i saw some of them are chit-chating, playing iphones and stuff... I don't think they are serious with it. And it always makes me wonders how much actually will reach this poor people? We all do judge people by their first impression, and I do not think that they even feel sad for them.

And another thing i always wonder is... in 10 years, everyone gonna have a career, but will i just randomly pop-up a long lost SAM lawyer friends and say "Hiya, can you help me in this law case?" CHOI! CHOI CHOI!

Ok, will i randomly pop-up and ask discount from a friend that i don't really know to get me cheap concert tickets? Based on my personality, i really can't do these things that require a face that is as thick as a wall.

Anyway, you guys are always welcome to random pop-up, however no money issues involved.

Stop it right there!

Apparently I just finish my microeconomics tutorial class. I was expecting my last week mid-term result, but it was not release yet.



My way of life is barely simple, which is "Learn from mistake".



You get wrong, and you learn and try to correct it. I admit there are genius but there are no saints, and even genius makes mistakes. And it's like the smarter you are, the mistake you make will be more severe because smart people usually overlooked themselves.



Last semester, i failed two of my core unit, which is Econometrics and Macroeconomics. I overlooked my mistakes and realise i was playing a fool when i'm dealing with year 2 subjects. You know when you see those students hanging around in the bar during noon, you will always ask this question to yourself, are they even studying in uni? or they came here for the cheap beer?



Let's get back to the topic. I am so confident this semester that I'm gonna get through every subject this semester, except Microeconomics with alot of uncertainty.

Be realistic, you've failed all your Economy subjects and yet you still walking around declaring yourself a economic students? This will be the joke of 2010, maybe just not the top one.



With nights staring and reading of economics, i found out that it requires a lot of calculus and mathematic applications. I fully understand that the world need maths, but i'm not one of the maths people. It is very pathetic when you go through a life that you know is not suitable for you, but solely just to gets you 'manufactured' and fits in to what we called "The Society".



Sometimes I envy my friend, Jie Li. He is a smart guy with a clear brain that i hang out alot with recently, academic wise. He tend to knows where he is going and keeps everything in order, in order of the "standard of society". How good if i would just focus to be like him and stop blogging now. *Note: His the amazing guy that don't even have facebook account! so stop looking for him in Facebook!



Then, I heard a conversation between a girl with my tutor just now that the girl is facing calculus problem. The way the tutor comfort her makes me kinda warm, however it is unrealistic when you think about it.



He says that it's not all about calculus, and the mid-term paper do not have as much calculus, so just read the text and have a look at the bigger picture.



I did quite a number of calculus during my preparation and i know it is very important for graphs. I will never see a pass if i just depend myself on theory which still based on calculus and calculus that involves too much fundamental mathematical studies.



I shall stop it right here and go back to my econometrics studies. I have a confident to score on this weekend test. Till then, I'm trying hard to "conquer" what have "haunted" me for years, and years to come.





P/S: I'm always the happy me, because i left the emo me somewhere over the rainbow.

自律的目标

以上是我的念书时间表, 青色代表上课时间, 蓝色是自修时间,橙色是吃饭时间,粉红色是运动时间.

那么大学的科目每一个星期一定要用至少九个小时来复习,扣除掉3个或4个小时的上课时间的话,也至少要6个小时在家里自我温习 ( 包括做功课).

上个学期真得太扯了. 不过没关系, 我一定要打败自己的心魔, 练成无欲无求的境界, 减少上网,多多念书,多多益善!

各位加油!

** 时间可能会因为某些活动而改变,可是还是以这个为标准!! 明天有AMAZING RACE! 希望拿第一名!

融化的生命

生命就像蜡烛,一点一点融化.
生命就像烟火,瞬间的闪烁.
要让烟火开得灿烂啊~~

这次比上次认真,这次比上次进步.
即使要到达目的地还有很远,即使走得再慢,我已经不是裹足不前的少年了.
慢慢来,比较快. :)

四月生活报告

• 四月第二个星期会去墨尔本 五日游
• 第三个星期会去South Coast & Port Stephen 一日游

读着 <消费者行为/Consumer Behavior>, 不是很了解心理学, 应该是说人类根本就不可以用心理学概括.
人类, 矛盾又野蛮的生物.
有圣人吗? (笑~~)

P/S: Id, Ego, and Superego, 需要高手用简单的句子解释清楚. 谢谢

认真看少年漫画的人会发达吗?

从小就开始就严重迷恋 系列的漫画, 不过第一本接触到的应该是<小叮当,多拉A梦>. 主人翁大雄就塑造了我一般的人格. 从心理学来看,小时候的影响会永远烙印在脑海中.

大雄,懒惰,爱睡觉,喜欢做梦,钟情(应该是说只有一个女主角?)

不过随着年纪越来越大,看得漫画真得越来越多.... 种类也越来越广, 体育,恋爱,热血, 友情
七龙珠, 柯南, 结界师,炼金术师, 虫师, Bleach, One Piece,火影, 银魂, 死神, 灌篮, Eyeshield21, 游戏王,通灵王, D.Grayman, 还有很多很多很多 列不完的.....

我是很容易被影响的人... 不过这些故事的主人翁真得不会让我看了以后会发达的, 以后人生也未必成功, 看例子:
One Piece 草帽路飞: 坦率,傻头傻脑, 遇到事情很认真
Naruto 漩涡鸣人: 开朗,重友情, 不放弃
Bleach 黑崎一护: 爱做梦, 不会死掉, 会变身( 坦白讲我不喜欢)
柯南 : 帅气, 聪明, 足球很厉害
银魂 : 懒散, 贪钱, 认真

以上,没有一个是有钱人, 热血的性格常常让他们陷入危机, 每次都要死不死.

所以, 热血, 努力, 友情 = JUMP 少年漫画

P/S: 还好小时候第一本漫画不是<老夫子>, 要不然我就会看港漫,龙虎门,风云,古惑仔等等.... 暴力美学.



这篇东西构思很好,可是表达能力欠佳,结尾有一点马虎,如此劣作,多多见谅.

久违了!

已经不能说好久不见了! 只能重新介绍,我是Baitofu,现在正在搏斗. 老实说,感觉上真得选错科系了.

经济怎么都是数学! 而且越来越进阶.

反观这次我那的Marketing,感觉很有趣.图文并茂,相信到时有另一番领悟.

刚回到来,还好有好友相伴,不会那么寂寞.而且有一位朋友暂住在我的家,因为他的久房子还没有好.可以聊聊天,煮煮饭,吹吹水.

三个月的休息应该很足够再冲刺,这次不会再落马了. 战斗吧!

Me 10

Sorry guys, life is too good in KL, sometimes i just wish that i have 10 me to do single things i wanted.

1. The Blogger me
I've been leaving my blog dead so i wish someone would just blog for me.

2.The Potato me
I wanna watch the whole series of TVB dramas and Justice Pao.

3.The Gamer me
I still haven get my hands on Call of duty:Modern warfare 2 & left for dead 2.

4.The Boyfriend me
Needless to say, more time to accompany my GF.

5.The Family me
Just join my family for outing and dimsum would be great.

6.The Worker me
More work, more money, then i can have a FAT CNY!

7.The Traveller me
Wanna visit some friends in Vietnam, wanna follow daddy go Indon, i wanna go Taiwan.

8.The Driver me
I need to train my sister to drive, sometimes pickup or deliver.

9.The Friendly me
Nobody dare to call me nowadays cos they know i am busy. Dint see my friends much.

10.The Pasar me
Going to pasar for fishball noodle every morning. OMG.

圣诞Marketing

圣诞节是对基督教徒一个非常神圣的日子, 因为那天是耶稣出世. 那一天的早上, 民间都会到教堂唱歌,庆祝. 就像过年一样热闹.

其实,这是一个富有宗教色彩的一大庆典.

奈何,为什么每当圣诞要到时,我总是看见好多礼物大减价,好多圣诞老人在街上派传单,好多情侣在过白色圣诞.

原来,圣诞节已经被包装成了一个商家卖东西的好时机,情侣庆祝的日子.

真有你的!

有看过大年初一情侣成双成对的吗?

明年可能会看到. 2月14号. 情人节

又是商家出现的时候了... 粉红红包,爱心对联...

P/S: 心中有少林,处处是少林. 心中有情人,天天情人节.